| AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: The usual
meditation—traditional meditation, the motivated remedy—is
only a consolation, an effect, and a good feeling. The usual meditation
effects no fundamental turnabout in ordinary (egoic) consciousness—and,
thus, when situations arise outside of the meditative circumstance,
there is no control over the already patterned process of identification,
differentiation, and desire.
I spent years with all kinds of people who were experiencing the
phenomena of Kundalini Yoga—dealing with the effects of Spiritual
Force, miraculous Spiritual experiences. I have never seen anyone
fundamentally changed by such experiences. They are not “designed”
to change you. They are change. They are phenomena only. The phenomena
themselves are not the point. They are simply a means of purification.
You are not intended to sit in them forever, to bathe in them and
watch them perform.
If you are My rightly practicing devotee, whatever such phenomena
need to happen in your case are guaranteed to happen. But such phenomena
are a relatively minor aspect of Spiritual life. They should be
allowed to arise—but observe that they are not themselves
Spiritual life. They will not lead to Divine Liberation. They are
not, in and of themselves, Truth. They do not affect the motivating
character (or root-difficulty) of your particular individual life
one iota. Thirty years of Shakti experiences will occupy a fool,
but they will not Awaken such a one.
Increase of Energy or Spiritual experience does nothing whatsoever
to the fundamental quality of conscious awareness. At most, Spiritual
experiences simply intensify conscious awareness, providing functional
strength—so that Spiritual life can begin as a Real process.
Only “radical” (or “root”) self-understanding
avails. In other words, no motivated process, no simple influence
of Energy avails. “Radical” (or “root”)
self-understanding is not attachment to some functional body (or
functional sheath), or some conditional realm, or some conditional
experience that is seen as the alternative, remedy, cure, and source
of “victory”. “Radical” (or “root”)
self-understanding recognizes (by Means of My Avataric Divine Grace)
that every motive and action is “made” of avoidance.
Thus, “radical” (or “root”) self-understanding
has no recourse except to understand. And “radical”
(or “root”) self-understanding and the one who truly
(“radically”, or “at the root”) understands
the ego-“I” are not “different” from Reality
Itself, the One and Only Self of all-and-All, the “Bright”.
The Yogic search enjoys only the conditionally manifested forms
of “Shakti” (or the conditionally achieved Bliss of
Energy). Only “Radical” Knowledge is Real Love-Bliss-Happiness,
not dependent on anything.
The influence of Satsang with Me, the Condition of Satsang with
Me, must begin. You must begin to adapt to Satsang with Me, make
It your sadhana, meet the conditions of life in My Avataric Divine
Company in a very simple manner, rightly adapt to a disciplined
life, assume responsibility for the heart-relationship that is Satsang
with Me—and begin to listen to Me.
You will simply begin to listen—and, when this process in
conscious awareness has begun, you will begin to observe yourself,
see yourself under the conditions of life.
“Radical” (or “root”) self-understanding
awakens (by Means of My Avataric Divine Grace) when you truly listen
to My Avataric Divine Word and truly observe yourself in relationship.
Therefore, observe yourself in life.
Observe yourself when you seek.
Observe yourself when you suffer to any degree.
Observe your motives.
Observe the activity of identification.
Observe the activity of differentiation.
Observe the activity of desire.
Observe the patterns of your existence.
The process of self-observation—magnified by listening to
My Spoken Instruction about the self-contraction (or the avoidance
of relationship), and by all your study and living of the Way of
Adidam—becomes, at some point, Communication received: real
observation that—yes!—this contraction, this avoidance,
is the quality of your life.
When you realize that you are always seeking, “radical”
(or “root”) self-understanding is emerging.
When you realize that all your motives, all your acts, all your
seeking, are the pattern of “Narcissus”, “radical”
(or “root”) self-understanding is emerging.
When you realize that you are always suffering, “radical”
(or “root”) self-understanding is emerging…...
Therefore, commit yourself to “radical” (or “root”)
self-understanding in the midst of all experience—instead
of merely committing yourself to the various kinds of remedial action
that may be engaged as a means to handle the “problem”
f life in any moment…
Listen! There is this contraction, this avoidance. All human beings
are living this avoidance of relationship. Apart from self-understanding,
that is all anyone is doing. Nothing else is happening—only
this contraction of gross, subtle, and causal forms. It is suffering.
It stimulates, by implication, the ego-based notions people have
about the nature of life. The self-contraction implies a separate
self—separate from the world and from all other beings.
The appearance of “many” and “separate me”
is an expression of your suffering—but the Presence, the Force,
the Bliss, of Divine Reality persists and is felt even under the
conditions of egoic ignorance. Therefore, the self-contraction appears
as the drama of desire, the search for union between the “separate
me” and the “manyness”. Everyone’s life
is the drama made inevitable by this fundamental contraction. Everyone’s
life is the adventure that the individual is playing on this contraction.
The drama of an ordinary life is without significance, without Real
intensity. The ordinary life-drama is deadly ignorance—no
Truth, no Satsang with Me.
Satsang with Me must begin. Satsang with Me must be enjoyed as
the Condition of life. Then the entire ego-drama—of which
even traditional Spirituality is a manifestation—comes to
an end dies. The self-contraction becomes flabby and releases. The
Real Power of Consciousness Manifests Itself, Drawing you more deeply
into the sadhana in My Avataric Divine Company.
In the Way of Adidam, meditation is not something that takes place
in the midst of dilemma. In the Way of Adidam, meditation is not
a strategic method to get rid of your suffering. It is not perpetual
preoccupation with your own thoughts, with the content of your own
life, in order to free yourself of your thoughts, step aside from
them, make them quiet. The “you” who does all of that
is itself the dilemma. It does not know anything. It is (itself)
the suffering. It is (itself) obsession with the endless stream
of its own thought.
Therefore, your attempts to do something about the “mind”—to
make it quiet, to make it see visions, and so on—are nothing
but further expressions of the original motivating dilemma. Such
strategies are expressions of your separative impulse, attempts
to fortify and “save” your separate life (which is already
an illusion).
In the Way of Adidam, meditation arises only in the heart-relationship
with Me—only under the conditions of Truth, already lived.
There is Force in such meditation. For my rightly practicing devotee,
meditation is an intense Fire. It is a marvelous Intelligence, a
Brilliance, a Genius, a Living Force. It is not a pious attempt
to quiet your little thoughts. It blasts the hell out of those thoughts!
From the “Point of View” of the Living Divine Heart
(or Truth Itself, or Reality Itself), there is no concern for all
of these thoughts, all of these dilemmas, all of this mediocrity
of suffering. All of that amounts to nothing.
When Satsang with Me becomes the Principle of your life, and Truth
becomes the form of your meditation, thought is consumed. Such True
Meditation is a Pressure under Which thoughts cannot survive. Such
True meditation is an Intelligence that needs only to observe an
obstruction in order for that obstruction to dissolve. This is the
process that comes awake in Satsang with Me—not some strategic
method, some ego-based remedy. The entire point of view of dis-ease
is false. Spiritual life is not a “cure”. Spiritual
life is the life of Truth. If you are looking for a cure, then you
are still obsessed with your dis-ease.
Therefore, the first true thing you do when you come into contact
with Me is to relax the obsession with your dis-ease, your trouble.
Thus, the original activity you enjoy in relation to Me is not some
remarkably sophisticated form of meditation. As my beginning devotee,
what you do is nothing very sophisticated at all. You turn to Me
and relax your search. You begin to find yourself in the Condition
of Truth, the Condition of Satsang with Me. You begin to enjoy that
Condition very directly and concretely—enjoying the Force
of It, the Intensity of It, the Beauty of It, the Blissfulness and
Happiness of It. Only after you have firmly established yourself
in Satsang with Me do you begin to observe yourself consistently
ad effectively, to become truly intelligent and sophisticated in
your application to the practice I have Given. Depending on how
seriously you apply yourself, the beginnings of Satsang with Me
may last for a very long time.
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